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02 June 2009 @ 12:48:00 AM
Wat's In Harmith's miserable Life TODAY!
Narrator Of This Guy's Life
Today was the day where my grandma's body was going to be cremated/ burnt and turned into ashes. I was hesitating to go in the morning but i did though. Upon reaching my aunt's home, we cried like shit. I mean my grandma's DEAD! i can't believe it! Anyways, around 2pm plus we left for HSA( Health Sciences Authority) at General Hospital. We were crying luhs. I could see her face so clearly. She was smiling. She left in peace. She died.
Everyone teared like crazy, who wouldn't? I sure did! I was so emotional about it. Then they took her body and put it in a coffin. It was unbelievable that she DIED! They brought it to Mandai Crematorium / Cemetery. I cried like fuck. I just couldn't hold back. I mean it's my grandma! SHE DIED! I cried my lungs out. Everyone put flowers on her body. I too did so. I kept crying, tears just kept rolling down my cheeks as though i was some dead person having someone pouring water on my face making it seem i was crying. I was so sad. I just don't know what other word to use. SAD just describes it all.
As they were putting the cover over i kept crying. I just continued crying. I cried and cried and cried and cried and suddenly stopped. I thought to myself, IT'S ALL FAKE! She didn't die. They are presuming she's dead. Then as we entered the viewing hall, i cried! I realized it was all true! Everything was a FACT! nothing was fake, no drama, all true scenes. I cried till i nearly fainted, at a moment i nearly felt like closing my eyes and drop dead, though i didn't.
I just couldn't take the FACT she died! MY GRANDMA'S DEAD! Then all grand children had to distribute some kind of a prayer "sweet" to everyone. As i was distributing i realized some people were shedding fake tears. They were laughing and joking around. Or was it that they've moved on? Gosh, everything was in such a rush, i wanted to just cherish those short moments with my grandma.
Then we headed to the Willkie Road temple. My split head ache just kept getting worst. I wanted to drop dead, thinking i too want to die and let it all end. But thinking of the pain my mummy went through because of me, i didn't. I grew stronger. Everyone kept telling me "Wah, you are a good person, good boy! Taking care of your single mother is something not many kids will do. They will just abandon their parents." I kept crying. I didn't know what and who i was crying for. Was it for my dad? Was it for the pain my mummy endured for me? or Was it the death of my grandma? Everything was just in such a dazz, i too felt like ending it. I just cried so much.
I know though i wasn't close to my grandma from my dad's side, i still loved her. The sweetest part was she would always call on us, finding out our well being and my reply would simply be " We are fine! How are you? Must take care of yourself, don't over do it." These words kept repeating in my mind. Everyone kept telling me those words, inferring my grandma told everyone how sweet and all i was. I just wanted to cry it all out. I am extremely sad.
Then we took my somewhat distant uncle's van to Jelapang, somewhere in Bukit Panjang. I was so sad and i thought i should move on. So i tried to just remember my grandma as someone who came and left with happiness. I miss her a lot! I hope she will rest in peace.
Now, tomorrow they are going to get the ashes back. I don't want to go, i feel too guilty already. I will be going school. I am just simply sad and devastated. I hope everyone who has seen this post will pray for her well being though she's passed on. I hope a mintue of your life isn't too much to ask for. Thank You for doing it.
Now in the middle of the night posting, i too am tired. I am going to get some sleep.
Thank You everyone for the words of encouragement. Natellie and Yan Kei. Thanks. Maybe i've missed out some, but yeah thanks!
Byebye
Till next time, I'm Harmith!
Narrator Of This Guy's Life
Today was the day where my grandma's body was going to be cremated/ burnt and turned into ashes. I was hesitating to go in the morning but i did though. Upon reaching my aunt's home, we cried like shit. I mean my grandma's DEAD! i can't believe it! Anyways, around 2pm plus we left for HSA( Health Sciences Authority) at General Hospital. We were crying luhs. I could see her face so clearly. She was smiling. She left in peace. She died.
Everyone teared like crazy, who wouldn't? I sure did! I was so emotional about it. Then they took her body and put it in a coffin. It was unbelievable that she DIED! They brought it to Mandai Crematorium / Cemetery. I cried like fuck. I just couldn't hold back. I mean it's my grandma! SHE DIED! I cried my lungs out. Everyone put flowers on her body. I too did so. I kept crying, tears just kept rolling down my cheeks as though i was some dead person having someone pouring water on my face making it seem i was crying. I was so sad. I just don't know what other word to use. SAD just describes it all.
As they were putting the cover over i kept crying. I just continued crying. I cried and cried and cried and cried and suddenly stopped. I thought to myself, IT'S ALL FAKE! She didn't die. They are presuming she's dead. Then as we entered the viewing hall, i cried! I realized it was all true! Everything was a FACT! nothing was fake, no drama, all true scenes. I cried till i nearly fainted, at a moment i nearly felt like closing my eyes and drop dead, though i didn't.
I just couldn't take the FACT she died! MY GRANDMA'S DEAD! Then all grand children had to distribute some kind of a prayer "sweet" to everyone. As i was distributing i realized some people were shedding fake tears. They were laughing and joking around. Or was it that they've moved on? Gosh, everything was in such a rush, i wanted to just cherish those short moments with my grandma.
Then we headed to the Willkie Road temple. My split head ache just kept getting worst. I wanted to drop dead, thinking i too want to die and let it all end. But thinking of the pain my mummy went through because of me, i didn't. I grew stronger. Everyone kept telling me "Wah, you are a good person, good boy! Taking care of your single mother is something not many kids will do. They will just abandon their parents." I kept crying. I didn't know what and who i was crying for. Was it for my dad? Was it for the pain my mummy endured for me? or Was it the death of my grandma? Everything was just in such a dazz, i too felt like ending it. I just cried so much.
I know though i wasn't close to my grandma from my dad's side, i still loved her. The sweetest part was she would always call on us, finding out our well being and my reply would simply be " We are fine! How are you? Must take care of yourself, don't over do it." These words kept repeating in my mind. Everyone kept telling me those words, inferring my grandma told everyone how sweet and all i was. I just wanted to cry it all out. I am extremely sad.
Then we took my somewhat distant uncle's van to Jelapang, somewhere in Bukit Panjang. I was so sad and i thought i should move on. So i tried to just remember my grandma as someone who came and left with happiness. I miss her a lot! I hope she will rest in peace.
Now, tomorrow they are going to get the ashes back. I don't want to go, i feel too guilty already. I will be going school. I am just simply sad and devastated. I hope everyone who has seen this post will pray for her well being though she's passed on. I hope a mintue of your life isn't too much to ask for. Thank You for doing it.
Now in the middle of the night posting, i too am tired. I am going to get some sleep.
Thank You everyone for the words of encouragement. Natellie and Yan Kei. Thanks. Maybe i've missed out some, but yeah thanks!
Byebye
Till next time, I'm Harmith!